Before the Morning

For the first few weeks of my journey I felt like I was learning a lot, but there came a point where I began to feel alone. As someone was asking me how I was doing, I honestly had to tell them I felt like I was seeking out God, but I was not finding him. I was extremely frustrated. One night on my way home from work my mom told me to listen to a song that might help me. The song is called "Before the Morning" by Josh Wilson and I am going to share it with you guys.

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?
Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

This first verse captured exactly how I was feeling. I was so hurt and kept asking God where he was. It is so easy to question God when things are hard and not going the way we had hoped, but we have to remember that there is something bigger going on that we can not always see at the moment. Now I know it doesn't seem like things are ever going to get better when all you feel is pain, but there is a better ending coming.

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

It is so scary to dare to believe that things are going to get better when all you see is darkness. Yet God promises us that the darkness is going to end. Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning! (Psalm 30:5) You have to continue to press on through the fight because there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Its the waiting that can be very difficult, but it is always worth it in the end.

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good for those who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

The second verse carries one of my favorite lines in the song. "Life is not a snapshot." If you took a picture of my life two months ago and compared it to today it would be completely different. Time changes everything. I know that I am not the most patient person in the world, but when it comes to God's plan you have to learn to be patient. Wait on him and he will show you the bigger picture.

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory

There is no truer statement then the one above. God's glory makes the pain of any hurt fade to just a memory. He has been working in my heart day by day to make the pain fade away, but he does not leave an empty space when he removes it. He fills the pain with his love, and there is nothing else in the world that I would want to fill that space in my heart.

As the chorus is repeated one last time there is a line that is sung that wasn't sung before. "It's just the hurt before the healing." What a powerful thought. Hurting is not something that people desire in their life, but when there is a hurt there is always a healing. God is going to heal all of the pain in your life, and make you whole.

I hope that this song helps you as much as it helped me...