Back at it Again

Well my friends, I find myself in a place which could benefit from some writing. It has been a long time since I have dedicated myself to writing things out, and I wish to change it...

Life is hard...

In case anyone did not know the wonderful fact above I just wanted to state it. In talking with other people my age, we have all come to the conclusion that life is very difficult for a young 20 something these days. Jobs are VERY hard to come by. Finding a place to live is hard to come by. Lets not even scratch the surface of debt, whether it be school debt of credit card debt.

I find myself in this stuck place in life. I have been substitute teaching full time and a manager and barista at a coffee shop because the wonderful piece of paper I payed $40,000 has not helped me secure a job. I live at home in my childhood bedroom with no signs of moving out anytime soon. On top of all of those facts I find myself newly single once again. Basically I have backtracked to highschool.

This past September I turned 24. Now when I was a kid I always thought my life would be together by the time I turned this age. If only I had known otherwise. Life never turns out the way you think.

As I was sharing all of these things with a very wise couple in my church, the husband tells me "I have a word for that." Me thinking it will be something profound asks, "What?" Are you ready for his response.... "Life" 

Life always brings setbacks. Everything can seem to be looking up and then all of the sudden you are taken three steps backwards. In all of the setbacks I have been experiencing lately I have been experiencing one major push forward. GOD

Although I have not been making strides in my career the one thing I can say which is always moving forward is God and his call for my life. It seems that over the past two years I have been out of college, my ministry has been growing to a place I would have never imagined. God has been showing more and more of his will for my life and although most of it terrifies, me I know everything will be okay. God is always taking care of me, even when there are setbacks in life. 

Life is like a box of Chocolates...

Life is most certainly like a box of chocolates, you never really know what you are going to get...

So it's day 5 in 2013 and so far this new year has already been a roller coaster. I started it off with a job interview. The interview went all right and I should hear if I made the first cut next week, but for whatever reason it left me feeling odd afterwards. Not really sure why but I continued on my day in a funk. 

I headed off to my night job while in my funk and found out my hours were being cut. Awesome, I'm broke and now I can't work. It was one of those days were life decided to say, "Hey it has been a while since you had a good punch in the face, here you go. *whack*"

I sat at work about to burst into tears because of the crappy day I was having and I remembered something. On New Years Day I said a prayer, "God please teach me to trust you more." As I continued to hold back tears God was just like, "Hey you wanted to learn to trust me more right? Well trust me. I will always take care of you."

I find it interested the way we ask God to teach us things to help us grow in him, and when he gives us an opportunity to learn we often ignore it. Why is that? I really have no clue why I immediately assume the worst and not the best. I know God will always take care of me and yet I often do not give him the chance to. 

So here's to letting God take over and do his thing. His ways are far better than mine will ever be.