Letting It All Go

I'm the kind of person that likes to have plan. I think I have a fear of sitting alone and missing out on something fun. This desire to always have a plan is something that makes me feel like I have control of my life. Now who doesn't like to be in control of the things going on in their life? I know I sure do, but throughout my journey I have had no control. It was killing me at first! I hate not having control over the situations in my life, especially the ones that hurt me. All I wanted was to be able to stop the pain, and get back to the plan that was in place before the pain started.

Because I had was still grasping to have control over my life, I wasn't really making any progress. I remember the moment I realized my control issue. I was laying in my bed talking to God when I said, "I just want to have control!" The next thing I heard was, "Just let me have the control." I immediately said okay. When you hear God's voice so clearly there is nothing else you can do but surrender. I realized in this moment that you have to wake up in the morning in complete surrender to God. If God is in control then you know the situation is going to be okay.

I think a good verse that backs up this lessons is Philippians 4:6-"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." I have learned to rejoice in my sufferings, present my worries to God, and let him have the control. Now I didn't instantly become better, and I still had to constantly let go of the situation. Pain does not just disappear, but it does fade. (Thank God it fades!) The bad days came and went, but the good times began to grow.

God is in control of my life, and it feels good. I don't know what he has planned for my future, but I know it will be amazing! I don't worry about not having a plan because as long as I continue to keep my focus on God everything will work out for the best.